Dear Friends and Visitors, I need time to heal.... my heart is too heavy to feel the pleasure and sense of achievement when accomplishing a Post, and the rewarding experiencing of responses....
August 22, 2011 my Doberman Felicity, having reached 15yrs 2mths passed. Her passing is acceptable with being due to age, I simply needed time to adjust and overcome my disappointment that we were not in our own home choice environment.
One month later, September 22, 2011, one of my wonderful Ganders Henry, of about 14yrs died in my arms from paralysis tick.
His passing has been emotionally traumatic. Rescuing him from a neighbour's dam physically taxing. Helping Nicholas, my remaining Gander of 18yrs cope has been going well.
But....
my heart has been heavy. It seems whatever protection our present rental has afforded us these past few years is gone....
This morning... about 1am, both my Hens... Suzanna and Victoria of 2yrs 3mths were taken....
It is my own fault.... I had not put up the safety gate. I had been sick all day, fell asleep, and awoke to my Hens distress... I ran downstairs, both were gone... I ran through the bush, and though found their Feathers, I did not find them.....
Again the timing is almost one month apart.... October 21, 2011.
My Gander Nicholas is beside me as I do this.... and I apologise to all who appreciate my Posts.... but I need time away. I need time to grieve and to heal.....
My Cat Tiffany helped me search through the Bush when I tried again to follow the Trail of my Hens' Feathers....
My Doves are cooing in the background.
We have all each yet to face the day and its Light and the truth of the emptiness we have yet to endure with our Girls physically gone.
I honestly feel to0 Heart heavy... I am just thankful my Hens are together, even if it is because of tragedy.
My thanks to you all. To all who have cared enough to add your selves as Members, Thank You Deeply. To all who have been kind enough to leave Messages, my deep appreciation....
All I have encountered in Blogland has been uplifting, encouraging and supportive... and I know when I am ready, I have a place to return to share my Stories and discover the wonderful Stories of others.
With love from Magda and Family
First light update.....
I have good news of a sort....
I went searching again first light....I have my Hen Victoria. She is withdrawn, but okay.
The trail of Feathers I re-followed became increasingly worse. I know now they are Suzanna's. The trail went cold. But I will search again.
Am so pleased to at least still have one of my beautiful Hens.
With appreciation,
from Magda.
7 November 2011
I only found Suzanna's Feathers.
Both Nicholas Gander and Victoria Hen now sleep upstairs at night with me, the Doves and Tiffany Cat.
Slowly we are coping.
And we all sleep safer... hopefully it will remain so.
Good wishes from Magda
magda...it's hard to put into words...i'm sorry you've had so much loss and heartache lately.
ReplyDeleteyou know how i feel...and you know i'm here for you when ever you need someone to talk to.
take time. do what needs to be done. take a break. take care of life.
sending healing thoughts your way...
xxxooo laura
PUT IT BEHIND YOU
ReplyDeleteand come back.
No good punishing yourself.
Better to enjoy your blogging again.
Magda. I am so sorry for your loss. I have been through the loss of losing a well loved pet and feel your pain. I only hope you are doing better and start enjoying your wonderful blog again. Have faith and enjoy what you have. I hope your heart heals soon.
ReplyDeleteYour friend from across the pond,
MaDonna
Words are inadequate to express my thanks for the support you each have given me..... but my words of THANK YOU are deeply felt and expressed.
ReplyDeleteLAURA my wonderful Friend... your caringness is always a boost and an encouragement... and I'm on my way back.... and it feels good to be doing this thank you... your Healing Ways have helped.
And HANNAH.... so hard to put such events behind me.... the hardest part has been in helping Nicholas Gander and Victoria Hen cope with the effect each's loss has had on them.
Nicholas Gander in his 18yrs has never not been with other Geese, and for Victoria Hen... the Journey has been slow, but she is now doing well.
And today I am ready to return and begin Posting again... feels good being here. And Hannah, thank you for caring.
Oh MaDONNA... your words are beautiful thank you... and I just noticed the Date you gave this support... 24.11.2011.... even the time.... 12.55pm....
Nicholas Gander began not coping quite badly... on that very day, at 1pm... a Wildlife Carer and Wonderful Friend took me to where I brought back two Goslings for Nicholas.
From the moment they were introduced to each other Nicholas began being Nicholas again... he loves being a Dad... and they are showing they love him too.
Even Victoria Hen has been uplifted with their presence... an unexpected boon, and she joins them for morning wanders. A beautiful sight to observe. Her whole demeanour has changed for the better.
I may not have done right by me with the doing, but I certainly have done right by them, and the pleasure they are expressing is uplifting for me. And there's no denying the fact that the Goslings are a treat.
Also, another serendipity moment with discovering your gift here MaDonna... I had arrived to do my November Posting of one of your beautiful Creations... albeit late, but felt right to do, and will complete that Journey later today.
Thank you LAURA, HANNAH and MaDONNA... appreciate immensely experiencing your supportive kindnesses. Love from Magda and Co. xoxox