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Now I know the Introductory Image is of a Swan, but the mood the image gives felt very right for this Story of my wonderful 18 year old Gander Nicholas.
On Thursday, 24 November 2011 at about 3pm, Nicholas was introduced to two Goslings who responded eagerly the moment they saw him.... and I had the pleasure of seeing Nicholas' Energy unfold in renewing layers with seeing and hearing the Goslings... he has become whole again... his response equalled their pleasure as he spoke in turn to them and began nibbling their tiny 1 week old bodies with affection.
Nicholas died January 2012.
He quietly let go as the Goslings became more independent.
It was sad for me and them, but he did look contented even in death.
I don't regret doing what I did for him. I miss him.
The other special Family member in this Story is Victoria Hen.
Sadly she died towards the end of 2012 at only 3. I deeply miss her also.
My wonderful Nicholas Gander had been coping as best he could for two months before this Gosling event. His Friend for about ten years, Henry Gander, died on 22 September 2011, and though I have not shared the Story, the grieving and coping has been difficult for both of us... and I am still not ready to write further about that day and night of loss and sadness. What I will add here though, I am so very proud of Nicholas for trying to be the only Gander... and he really did try to cope.... but he was steadily losing the desire to do or say anything, and I knew if I didn't do something, I was going to be watching him each day fade within himself and die.
We have shared seventeen years together, seventeen years of Stories... I believed and felt strongly I owed him something for all those years... I felt I had a responsibility to him.... and though I would have liked very much if he could have continued coping.... I could see he wasn't.
So, as much as I feel that with me being 60, it is time I now simply let each of my remaining Crew pass when their natural time comes, I was unable to not do something to help Nicholas... my life is not just about me... and Nicholas is important. I may not want to pass away and leave behind those I am caring for, but I also don't want to ignore their needs when they need me to give that little extra.
The following photo was my Nicholas on 22 October 2011, one month after Gander Henry's death and one day after our Suzanna Hen was lost to us too....
Though Nicholas did pick up a little since then, what you see in that photo is what Nicholas had begun doing each day every day more and more.... just standing under the house, by the water container, occasionally eating, and regularly drinking. He was rarely saying anything, took little interest in his appearance, only wandered about the yard a little.... and then to only mainly stand by his Pond and drink water there too....
On the morning of the 24th November, I sat under there with him and we talked... well he just listened.... but the feelings like waves flowing through me and around me from Nicholas as I spoke told me heaps... he was allowing himself to fade... when he tucked his head under his wing, I sensed immediately he would die if I didn't do something more than I am doing.
After a few phone calls... and discovering about 20minutes drive from me I could meet up with Goslings, teenage Geese and adult Geese I was shocked. Geese are rarely available. Ducks yes, but not Geese.
Then a close Wildlife Carer Friend pointed out to me that she tried to do this for me weeks ago... and will be picking me up at 1pm for the Journey to meet up with a Friend for Nicholas, and the deed is a Christmas Gift for him from her, no protests accepted.
Those two special moments didn't end there, because by 1pm the Sky opened and poured buckets of water locally for about half an hour... yes, locally only.... hardly any fell elsewhere, and the rain was only a large amount of water....
The significance of that rain is the ground had been so parched for water, that to walk on the Grass was to feel it crackle under-foot... the Sky's gift meant by the time we returned about 3pm there was a little green to be seen, and the ground had been refreshed.
But, I have been more than wordy enough.... please enjoy the photos I remembered to take after the initial meeting between the Goslings and Nicholas......